I Want Part 2

“I’m no crazy creep, I’ve got it coming
To me because I’m not satisfied
The hunger keeps on growing
I eat too much
I drink too much
I want too much
Too much…” Dave Matthews Band

Why do we feel entitled? In my search for understanding the wanting this keeps coming up. Why do we deserve? What have I done to deserve this? Why do we feel like we deserve what we get, don’t deserve that, I am owed, cutting corners to get what we want, taking no chances, not doing the hard work, not looking inside, outside, all around for what is right in us all along. All I really want now is me. Healthy, happy me. All that does not come in a box a pretty cellophane wrapped plastic all shiny and new, drawing me in with its false joy and empty promises. Everything that does not come in a pill, capsule, tablet, computer, cell phone, website, magazine, shiny new thing. Love is the only real answer. I have to love me, every ounce of me, this is me accepting me right now, and I deserve it.